Posted on: Monday, January 08, 2007
Posted at: 11:41 PM
it seems like it's getting harder and harder to keep my bitchy side from surfacing.
who am i trying to kid when i say i'm fine? at least, i tried to convince myself everything's okay, everything's back to normal.. but c'mon, everyone knows that it's impossible. once the gap is there, it's there.
i'm trying real hard to ignore it.. no matter how the going gets tough, i tell myself hey, look on the bright side. but oh goodness, i'm starting to give up. and that's the last thing i would ever want to end up doing.
everytime i think that okay, i'm fine. i'm back to normal. and then WHAM. i find something that will bring me down again. i don't want that! i really don't. 2 years is a really long time.. i don't want all that to go down the drain. or at least, it already seems like it's drifting away.
i hate being such a sore thumb. i really do.